[Min shouldn't be surprised that it's a little more intense the second time, but it still manages to catch him off guard. It takes him a moment to start to respond, following Ryan's lead as best he can.
His instincts are right though... Min hasn't quite mastered the art of breathing through kisses. He's mostly actually been holding his breath, so he's breathless when they part, and a little flushed.]
Kissing you?
[He almost looks confused by the question. It's a daunting prospect when everything he knows about kissing are things he's only just learned, but maybe Ryan wants him to take charge. Maybe that's what he's trying to build him up to.]
Yeah. Sure. It can't be that hard, right?
[Min-Gi smiles uncertainly, lifting his hand up to brush Ryan's cheek with his thumb. It's more reminiscent of the way his mom had swiped dirt from their faces when they'd been younger than anything romantic, but then he lets his palm settle, cupping Ryan's face much like he had Min's before.
The kiss is more calculated with Min in control. He's still feeling things out, trying to remember what had felt good when Ryan had kissed him. He doesn't push beyond what Ryan had done, keeping things simple and a little hesitant, though that's something he tries to mask.]
[Min certainly doesn't have to if he's not comfortable with it. Ryan just wants to give him the space to try it for the first time while they're alone, to fumble and try while there's no reason for any pressure whatsoever.
But Min takes him up on it, and Ryan loves these little moments where he pushes past his own discomfort to try something new. Ryan knows him, and he knows it's brave of him.
Ryan leans into his touch, catlike, and lets Min try what he wants to. He's still an active participant, but he lets Min make the calls and follows his lead. In a lot of way it really feels like Min-Gi. Ryan kissed more intuitively, without a specific plan in mind, but Min-Gi is very deliberate in his movements. It's almost certainly because he's still learning, but someday he will know what he's doing and be able to find what feels good with pinpoint precision.
They part again soon enough, but Ryan is reluctant to pull too far away. He could stay within kissing range for the rest of his life.]
You're a really quick learner.
[There's a flush across Ryan's face that says this is the truth. He's doing well, and Ryan is very much enjoying himself.]
[Someone smoother might quip that Ryan's a good teacher, but that isn't Min-Gi. He's looking at Ryan the same way he used to watch their teachers as they handed out assignments he'd been worried about his grade on, waiting for his verdict. His shoulders sag with the same relief when he has assurance he didn't do terribly, but his smile is brighter than it had ever been for any school work. It's not one that Ryan hasn't seen before though. It's a smile Ryan's seen many times over the past year and a half or so. It's the same one has when Ryan likes something he's come up with for a song they're working on.]
Yeah?
[It's not disbelief, despite the question. He knows there's no chance this is the best kiss Ryan's ever had, but he also knows he isn't lying. He can tell Ryan's enjoying this, and that's nice.
Unlike Ryan, though, he's a little overwhelmed at this point. It's everything he always told himself he'd never have. Not in any way that would make him happy. Especially not with Ryan. He trusts Ryan more than he trusts himself, but it's hard not to feel like he's waiting for the other foot to drop even if he knows he's being irrational. He doesn't pull his hand from Ryan's, but he does lean back from kissing range, turning so he's facing the water again before glancing at Ryan from the corner of his eyes. That feels safer than looking at him directly right now. Even after talking he still doesn't fully know where they stand with each other. He thinks he does, but he needs to hear it from Ryan before he can be secure that's where they landed.]
[Ryan lets him pull back, but he doesn't turn back to the water. He takes his other leg out of the water and sits up a little to give Min some personal space. He pulls up a knee to use as both an arm rest and head rest, and it's cozy. They only had a couple of kisses, but Ryan feels good about this. Sure in a way that he wasn't before.
And if Min can be brave about it all, so can he. He can ask for what he needs. He smiles, a playful tilt to his voice.]
Maaaaybe we are. But.
[He nudges Min a couple of times with his foot. Min isn't looking directly at him, but Ryan is still looking at him as though he'll meet his eyes eventually.]
--only if you can ask me to my face. If we're boyfriends now, I mean.
[Ryan is trying hard to keep it light, but inside his heart is pounding. He's already berating himself for being a moron for not just jumping on something he's wanted forever, but...he needs to know Min can say it. He needs to know this is a relationship, and not just him moving into Min-Gi's closet.]
[Ryan's nudging is annoying, but it does the trick. Min-Gi looks over at him, eyes narrowed with suspicion at what the 'but' could be. Poorly disguised irritation turns to confusion at his terms. He'd just asked him, hadn't he? It doesn't seem fair to make him ask again, but Ryan is being patient with him. He's not unaware of that.
It's hard, but if that's what Ryan wants, the least he can do is ask him again. Hopefully in whatever way he's actually looking for this time.]
Are we? Boyfriends?
[He gives Ryan's hand a squeeze, both to reassure himself this is okay and to show Ryan that despite any hesitation this is what he wants. It scares him, and even now he isn't sure he's ready, but he's wanted it for so long now and it's not an opportunity he can afford to throw away without even trying.]
[The change is subtle but if anyone will see it, it's Min-Gi. Ryan's smile brightens into something genuine, wide and full of relief and excitement. He squeezes Min-Gi's hand right back, and when he speaks he's almost breathless.]
Yeah! We're boyfriends.
[They're boyfriends! They're boyfriends! It's all very exciting and new and Min-Gi can even look at him and not be ashamed to be with him. It's so much, but in the best possible way.
Ryan unlaces their fingers, but before there's time to even miss the contact he pulls Min into a tight hug. He doesn't want to totally overwhelm Min, but it does comes with the tiniest little kiss to the cheek - quiet proof that Min did exactly what he was hoping for.]
[Min-Gi sees it, and it makes his heart flutter to see Ryan happier. Especially when it goes from simple confirmation to a full on embrace.
His cheeks were already pink, but he only goes redder when he feels Ryan's lips on his cheek. It still doesn't feel quite real, but it's a gesture he could easily come to love.
He's more than happy to return the hug, pulling his feet out of the water so he can turn to hold him more fully.]
I love you.
[It's only something they'd started saying recently and briefly, but it's something he'd missed since they'd realised their true feelings. It makes Min nervous to say it again, without the pretense he only means it platonically, but it's a relief too. It makes him happy he doesn't have to hold back the truth from Ryan anymore.]
[The answer is instant, an echo. All of the nervousness it's held every time Ryan's said it back, as though Min would see through it and instantly know it was more than platonic, is gone. They both know exactly where they stand in this moment, and they're both saying exactly what they mean.
I love you so much.
[He's never loved anyone the way he loves Min-Gi, in this way that makes his heart full to the point that it might burst. He's so happy that his words come out as a light little laugh, relieved to be able to just...be in love with Min-Gi, in a way that was never possible before.]
[It's so nice to hear it back, and know exactly the way Ryan means it, rather than it just being another way to push the boundaries of their friendship in a way that's maybe not normal but is still acceptable enough. At least between the two of them.
There isn't that little pang of sadness, or guilt for being deceptive. He can just be happy, and let himself feel loved in a way he never thought was possible.]
We could go back to the tent? If you wanna practice kissing some more...
[Min's trying to sound casual, but he's full of nervous energy at the prospect of kissing again. Much as he's enjoyed it so far he knows has a lot of improving to do if he's going to match up to Ryan.]
[Ryan pulls back from the hug slightly, just enough to look at Min when he responds, mere inches apart. Just enough to tease a little.]
Sure, man. I'm always down for kissing practice.
[Not that he actually needs much practice, but he very much enjoys kissing Min-Gi, teaching him what feels good and learning what feels good to Min. Ryan could happily spend the rest of his life kissing him, over and over and over.
He doesn't kiss Min now though, not yet - Min did say he wanted to go back to the tent after all. So instead he pushes himself upright and stands, and then offer Min a hand so he can do the same.]
[Min's laugh is a little awkward. It's a lot nicer to be on the receiving end of Ryan's flirting than it is to watch it go down, but it's a new feeling to have it directed at him and not one he's used to yet.
Even so, he grabs his runners and lets Ryan bear the brunt of pulling him up. He's built up muscles of his own with all the time they've spent on the road, both here and back in their own world, but honestly? He kind of likes the reminder of how unexpectedly strong Ryan is, and now there's no reason to pretend he doesn't. Why shouldn't he get to take advantage of his boyfriend's guitar muscles?]
Thank you.
[He rewards him with a small kiss on the cheek, switching which hand he has in Ryan's so he can keep holding it on the way back to the tent.]
[Somehow he wasn't expecting the kiss to the cheek, and it makes him beam from ear to ear as though he's never been kissed before. It's new and exciting, but more importantly it's a clear sign that he isn't just pushing Min into this - Min wants this and Ryan in turn feels wanted and loved.
He doesn't respond with words, but he laces their fingers together the moment he's able to and squeezes Min's hand. Together, they head back to the tent for even more make out practice.
And it's just as well - as they walk away, too focused on each other to notice, a couple of luvdisc leap out of the water in happy little excited arcs.]
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His instincts are right though... Min hasn't quite mastered the art of breathing through kisses. He's mostly actually been holding his breath, so he's breathless when they part, and a little flushed.]
Kissing you?
[He almost looks confused by the question. It's a daunting prospect when everything he knows about kissing are things he's only just learned, but maybe Ryan wants him to take charge. Maybe that's what he's trying to build him up to.]
Yeah. Sure. It can't be that hard, right?
[Min-Gi smiles uncertainly, lifting his hand up to brush Ryan's cheek with his thumb. It's more reminiscent of the way his mom had swiped dirt from their faces when they'd been younger than anything romantic, but then he lets his palm settle, cupping Ryan's face much like he had Min's before.
The kiss is more calculated with Min in control. He's still feeling things out, trying to remember what had felt good when Ryan had kissed him. He doesn't push beyond what Ryan had done, keeping things simple and a little hesitant, though that's something he tries to mask.]
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But Min takes him up on it, and Ryan loves these little moments where he pushes past his own discomfort to try something new. Ryan knows him, and he knows it's brave of him.
Ryan leans into his touch, catlike, and lets Min try what he wants to. He's still an active participant, but he lets Min make the calls and follows his lead. In a lot of way it really feels like Min-Gi. Ryan kissed more intuitively, without a specific plan in mind, but Min-Gi is very deliberate in his movements. It's almost certainly because he's still learning, but someday he will know what he's doing and be able to find what feels good with pinpoint precision.
They part again soon enough, but Ryan is reluctant to pull too far away. He could stay within kissing range for the rest of his life.]
You're a really quick learner.
[There's a flush across Ryan's face that says this is the truth. He's doing well, and Ryan is very much enjoying himself.]
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Yeah?
[It's not disbelief, despite the question. He knows there's no chance this is the best kiss Ryan's ever had, but he also knows he isn't lying. He can tell Ryan's enjoying this, and that's nice.
Unlike Ryan, though, he's a little overwhelmed at this point. It's everything he always told himself he'd never have. Not in any way that would make him happy. Especially not with Ryan. He trusts Ryan more than he trusts himself, but it's hard not to feel like he's waiting for the other foot to drop even if he knows he's being irrational. He doesn't pull his hand from Ryan's, but he does lean back from kissing range, turning so he's facing the water again before glancing at Ryan from the corner of his eyes. That feels safer than looking at him directly right now. Even after talking he still doesn't fully know where they stand with each other. He thinks he does, but he needs to hear it from Ryan before he can be secure that's where they landed.]
So... We're boyfriends now?
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And if Min can be brave about it all, so can he. He can ask for what he needs. He smiles, a playful tilt to his voice.]
Maaaaybe we are. But.
[He nudges Min a couple of times with his foot. Min isn't looking directly at him, but Ryan is still looking at him as though he'll meet his eyes eventually.]
--only if you can ask me to my face. If we're boyfriends now, I mean.
[Ryan is trying hard to keep it light, but inside his heart is pounding. He's already berating himself for being a moron for not just jumping on something he's wanted forever, but...he needs to know Min can say it. He needs to know this is a relationship, and not just him moving into Min-Gi's closet.]
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It's hard, but if that's what Ryan wants, the least he can do is ask him again. Hopefully in whatever way he's actually looking for this time.]
Are we? Boyfriends?
[He gives Ryan's hand a squeeze, both to reassure himself this is okay and to show Ryan that despite any hesitation this is what he wants. It scares him, and even now he isn't sure he's ready, but he's wanted it for so long now and it's not an opportunity he can afford to throw away without even trying.]
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Yeah! We're boyfriends.
[They're boyfriends! They're boyfriends! It's all very exciting and new and Min-Gi can even look at him and not be ashamed to be with him. It's so much, but in the best possible way.
Ryan unlaces their fingers, but before there's time to even miss the contact he pulls Min into a tight hug. He doesn't want to totally overwhelm Min, but it does comes with the tiniest little kiss to the cheek - quiet proof that Min did exactly what he was hoping for.]
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His cheeks were already pink, but he only goes redder when he feels Ryan's lips on his cheek. It still doesn't feel quite real, but it's a gesture he could easily come to love.
He's more than happy to return the hug, pulling his feet out of the water so he can turn to hold him more fully.]
I love you.
[It's only something they'd started saying recently and briefly, but it's something he'd missed since they'd realised their true feelings. It makes Min nervous to say it again, without the pretense he only means it platonically, but it's a relief too. It makes him happy he doesn't have to hold back the truth from Ryan anymore.]
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[The answer is instant, an echo. All of the nervousness it's held every time Ryan's said it back, as though Min would see through it and instantly know it was more than platonic, is gone. They both know exactly where they stand in this moment, and they're both saying exactly what they mean.
I love you so much.
[He's never loved anyone the way he loves Min-Gi, in this way that makes his heart full to the point that it might burst. He's so happy that his words come out as a light little laugh, relieved to be able to just...be in love with Min-Gi, in a way that was never possible before.]
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There isn't that little pang of sadness, or guilt for being deceptive. He can just be happy, and let himself feel loved in a way he never thought was possible.]
We could go back to the tent? If you wanna practice kissing some more...
[Min's trying to sound casual, but he's full of nervous energy at the prospect of kissing again. Much as he's enjoyed it so far he knows has a lot of improving to do if he's going to match up to Ryan.]
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Sure, man. I'm always down for kissing practice.
[Not that he actually needs much practice, but he very much enjoys kissing Min-Gi, teaching him what feels good and learning what feels good to Min. Ryan could happily spend the rest of his life kissing him, over and over and over.
He doesn't kiss Min now though, not yet - Min did say he wanted to go back to the tent after all. So instead he pushes himself upright and stands, and then offer Min a hand so he can do the same.]
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Even so, he grabs his runners and lets Ryan bear the brunt of pulling him up. He's built up muscles of his own with all the time they've spent on the road, both here and back in their own world, but honestly? He kind of likes the reminder of how unexpectedly strong Ryan is, and now there's no reason to pretend he doesn't. Why shouldn't he get to take advantage of his boyfriend's guitar muscles?]
Thank you.
[He rewards him with a small kiss on the cheek, switching which hand he has in Ryan's so he can keep holding it on the way back to the tent.]
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He doesn't respond with words, but he laces their fingers together the moment he's able to and squeezes Min's hand. Together, they head back to the tent for even more make out practice.
And it's just as well - as they walk away, too focused on each other to notice, a couple of luvdisc leap out of the water in happy little excited arcs.]