[Min looks at him expectantly, wanting to know what's been bothering him but afraid to say anything in case it makes him retreat back into silence. More silence than there is already.
His frown deepens as he finally elaborates. It's hard to imagine Ryan not lighting up any room he plays in. He's always put so much passion into his music, and he's so talented. It hurts to hear just how little he'd been appreciated before he'd come home to try and convince Min to join him. He's known for a while now that things weren't good, but that doesn't stop his own misinformed words echoing in his mind.
"Everything's been so easy for you."
He already feels bad for how jealous he'd been of Ryan's seemingly effortless ability to do whatever he wanted, but hearing specifics makes the guilt twist extra hard in his gut. He'd been miserable, but at least he'd been comfortable.]
I had no idea it was like that. I guess... I thought...
[What had he thought? That Ryan was financially irresponsible? That he didn't know how to take care of himself? He's ashamed to realise those had been part of his assumptions. That, and maybe just that Ryan had missed him. Like Min's company is some magic fix all for all the problems he'd had on his last attempt. He should have asked more questions sooner.]
I'm sorry you didn't feel like you could tell me. I know it would have sucked of us not to play this show so last minute, but if something like this happens again... we don't have to do it. I don't care who it's for if playing it's going to make you unhappy.
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His frown deepens as he finally elaborates. It's hard to imagine Ryan not lighting up any room he plays in. He's always put so much passion into his music, and he's so talented. It hurts to hear just how little he'd been appreciated before he'd come home to try and convince Min to join him. He's known for a while now that things weren't good, but that doesn't stop his own misinformed words echoing in his mind.
"Everything's been so easy for you."
He already feels bad for how jealous he'd been of Ryan's seemingly effortless ability to do whatever he wanted, but hearing specifics makes the guilt twist extra hard in his gut. He'd been miserable, but at least he'd been comfortable.]
I had no idea it was like that. I guess... I thought...
[What had he thought? That Ryan was financially irresponsible? That he didn't know how to take care of himself? He's ashamed to realise those had been part of his assumptions. That, and maybe just that Ryan had missed him. Like Min's company is some magic fix all for all the problems he'd had on his last attempt. He should have asked more questions sooner.]
I'm sorry you didn't feel like you could tell me. I know it would have sucked of us not to play this show so last minute, but if something like this happens again... we don't have to do it. I don't care who it's for if playing it's going to make you unhappy.