[The whole situation is strange. Stranger than either of them could ever have guessed even after the train. Even after spending months here.
It does pull a smile from him though, remembering the way they'd burst apart in a panic, each thinking they'd been the only one to give their deepest secret away that would change everything.
But Ryan's explanation of what it's like to date girls... that makes something twist in his gut that he can't quite place. Anger? Jealousy? He isn't sure. Either way, he hates the idea that they couldn't appreciate all the good things about Ryan.]
I know what you're like, Ryan. If this doesn't work, even if I'm the one who bails... I don't think it's going to be your fault.
[He's still not at the point where being gay sits totally right with himself, which isn't ideal when they're putting serious thought into dating, but... neither one of them can forget the things they'd felt when they'd been one person. Things have changed, and it's become clear they need to address it.
Ryan's touch does help though, and Min-Gi leans into it as he considers his to answer it. He's not sure if it's right, or even if Ryan will agree with him, but he does know the way he's pictured a relationship between the two of them. Truthfully he's envisioned it countless times in so many different ways, especially recently, but there's only one that's felt truly right to him.]
I... don't think I want things to change.
[He looks back over at Ryan, bracing himself for disappointment.]
Like... I don't know. Maybe we'd kiss sometimes, but mostly we'd just be the same way we've always been. Is that weird?
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It does pull a smile from him though, remembering the way they'd burst apart in a panic, each thinking they'd been the only one to give their deepest secret away that would change everything.
But Ryan's explanation of what it's like to date girls... that makes something twist in his gut that he can't quite place. Anger? Jealousy? He isn't sure. Either way, he hates the idea that they couldn't appreciate all the good things about Ryan.]
I know what you're like, Ryan. If this doesn't work, even if I'm the one who bails... I don't think it's going to be your fault.
[He's still not at the point where being gay sits totally right with himself, which isn't ideal when they're putting serious thought into dating, but... neither one of them can forget the things they'd felt when they'd been one person. Things have changed, and it's become clear they need to address it.
Ryan's touch does help though, and Min-Gi leans into it as he considers his to answer it. He's not sure if it's right, or even if Ryan will agree with him, but he does know the way he's pictured a relationship between the two of them. Truthfully he's envisioned it countless times in so many different ways, especially recently, but there's only one that's felt truly right to him.]
I... don't think I want things to change.
[He looks back over at Ryan, bracing himself for disappointment.]
Like... I don't know. Maybe we'd kiss sometimes, but mostly we'd just be the same way we've always been. Is that weird?