[Despite everything, his heart still flutters when Min assures him he never wants Ryan out of his life. No matter how awkward this all is, Min-Gi wants him here. He never wants him out of his life again.]
It happened even quicker than I wanted it to. Do you know how hard that is to actually pull off?
[He says it lightly, both joking and sort of not joking at all. After all, he was the one who freaked out and panicked about Min finding out first, from sharing a body of all things. Something he literally never could have predicted. He had never planned on saying anything, and then suddenly it was out in the open.
It's still weird how the world didn't totally fall apart afterwards. Even if they're awkwardly figuring things out, they're still talking about it. They're still trying.]
Most of the time straight dating is like, a guy talks to a girl at a party and make her laugh a little until she decides she wants to head back with him or give him her number. And then maybe she sticks around for a few months, but then she learns what he's actually like and bails. Or, that's how it always happened to me.
[He shrugs, like it's not a big deal and something that didn't crush him every single time it happened despite not even liking them that much.
Min looks away again, but this time Ryan doesn't avert his gaze. He places a hand on Min's elbow, not wanting to invade his space too much but still feeling the need to reach out and touch to ground him. Maybe to ground both of them.]
How about this? Tell me...how you picture it. Don't think about how it's supposed to go. Just...tell me what you think about, when you think about getting together. And we'll go from there?
[Ryan gently bites at his lower lip, not sure if this approach is actually a good one or not. Is it pushing him too much, or just enough?]
I won't laugh. I promise. ...I want to help you figure it out.
[This time, there's no waver in his voice and he isn't holding back a giggling smile. He means it more than he's ever meant anything.]
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It happened even quicker than I wanted it to. Do you know how hard that is to actually pull off?
[He says it lightly, both joking and sort of not joking at all. After all, he was the one who freaked out and panicked about Min finding out first, from sharing a body of all things. Something he literally never could have predicted. He had never planned on saying anything, and then suddenly it was out in the open.
It's still weird how the world didn't totally fall apart afterwards. Even if they're awkwardly figuring things out, they're still talking about it. They're still trying.]
Most of the time straight dating is like, a guy talks to a girl at a party and make her laugh a little until she decides she wants to head back with him or give him her number. And then maybe she sticks around for a few months, but then she learns what he's actually like and bails. Or, that's how it always happened to me.
[He shrugs, like it's not a big deal and something that didn't crush him every single time it happened despite not even liking them that much.
Min looks away again, but this time Ryan doesn't avert his gaze. He places a hand on Min's elbow, not wanting to invade his space too much but still feeling the need to reach out and touch to ground him. Maybe to ground both of them.]
How about this? Tell me...how you picture it. Don't think about how it's supposed to go. Just...tell me what you think about, when you think about getting together. And we'll go from there?
[Ryan gently bites at his lower lip, not sure if this approach is actually a good one or not. Is it pushing him too much, or just enough?]
I won't laugh. I promise. ...I want to help you figure it out.
[This time, there's no waver in his voice and he isn't holding back a giggling smile. He means it more than he's ever meant anything.]