[Ryan doesn't address whether Min would have ditched him or not, because there's no way for them to ever really know and he doesn't want to have to think about it. It's suffocating, but it's not something they ever need to know for sure.
The rest of it though, that steals the air right out of Ryan's lungs. Maybe this isn't the fairytale ending it was starting to feel like. Maybe they can both really like each other and Min still might not...want this.
(He supposes that makes sense. Min doesn't know much about it, but Ryan hasn't historically been a great boyfriend. Anyone would hesitate at starting something serious with him; he's sure of it.)
He's been quiet just a little too long and he can feel it in the air between them.]
Well.
[It feels so heavy in his throat, but he pushes forward anyway.]
...I'm here whenever you are? If you ever are, I mean. I-I don't want to make it sound like you have to be. Either way, I'm not going anywhere.
[Unless Min wants him to, of course, but he gets the impression that isn't the case. This revelation hurts, but it's a hurt he can live with. It's a hurt that was always under the surface anyway, when he thought Min was straight.]
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The rest of it though, that steals the air right out of Ryan's lungs. Maybe this isn't the fairytale ending it was starting to feel like. Maybe they can both really like each other and Min still might not...want this.
(He supposes that makes sense. Min doesn't know much about it, but Ryan hasn't historically been a great boyfriend. Anyone would hesitate at starting something serious with him; he's sure of it.)
He's been quiet just a little too long and he can feel it in the air between them.]
Well.
[It feels so heavy in his throat, but he pushes forward anyway.]
...I'm here whenever you are? If you ever are, I mean. I-I don't want to make it sound like you have to be. Either way, I'm not going anywhere.
[Unless Min wants him to, of course, but he gets the impression that isn't the case. This revelation hurts, but it's a hurt he can live with. It's a hurt that was always under the surface anyway, when he thought Min was straight.]