[Ryan knows this is true. It's why the whole thing felt so dumb in the first place - because he knows all of this is true. Hearing Min say it out loud strikes a different chord though, and it finally brings a smile to his face.]

...Me either. I missed you too.

[He squeezes Min's hand, as if to punctuate the thought. It's a weird way to hold someone's hand, with both of his own, but he still doesn't really want to let go.

Min has a point though, and he considers it.]

...Maybe? But, if I'm not feeling how I usually do...maybe it won't? Plus, you're here. ...And I can always stop.

[That in itself is a good reminder, because talking it out is also kind of scary, but Min's right here. He's here and that's enough for him to be able to try.]

I think...it's usually heavy? Heavy and slow. Like...it sucks all the energy out of me. Sometimes it's, um. Kind of numb? It's hard to describe, but usually I either push through it and try and get my mind off it, or just...curl up and ride it out, I guess?

[He looks to Min-Gi, trying to gauge if any of this makes sense. He feels like it doesn't, like he's just babbling in circles here, but...at least he's trying.]

Right now everything wants to be really, really fast and urgent. But, uh. Normally it's more like...not feeling like I can move at all. Or like it's ridiculously hard, like my whole body's just dead weight.